Love is paiN..paiN is.....cryiNg...

"Remember those walls I built,
Well, baby they're tumbling down..
And they didn't even put up a fight..
They didn't even make up a sound..
I found a way to let you in..
But I never really had a doubt..
Standing in the light of your halo..
I got my angel now..."

"Umur bape?"
"24.."
"Tak pe..muda lagi. Ada dua tahun lg masa, enjoy dulu..dlm 26 tu, sedang elok la kalau nk kawin..."
"Betul..betul..."
"Tapi, jangan jual mahal sangat...muka tu jangan dok masam je...Senyum sikit..Bukan apa, lelaki ni, kena tawan dulu hati dia, nak tawan hati dia, senyum je. Tapi, jangan pulak dok sengih memanjang..."
"Err...okay..."
"Perempuan Melayu ni bukan apa..jual mahal sngat..haa..tgk, lelaki2 melayu skang, byk dh yg kawin dgn foreigner..."
"Ohh.."
"Pak cik ni bukan pe..seronok tgk anak2 muda zmn skang kawin ikut adat...sejuk hati mak bapak.."
"Emmmm..."
"Haa..nanti, jgan pulak cari foreigner..cari lelaki melayu..."
"Insyaallah..."

This conversation was ended when my destination already arrived...
Lokasi: Dlm Teksi with a friendly pak cik..

> 24? isn't still young?
> 26? Isn't the right timing to get married...
> Smile? Is hard to smile actually..esp, for a guy dat we didn't even know...lg2 jenis aku yg spesis jln xpndang org..menonong je..> Maaf la ek, klu korang rase aku xtegur korang klu tetiba aku trserempak dgn korang kat mn2...
> Jual mahal?...err...feel exclusive mybe..
> Then..mcm cik miza kata...aku xprnah nak cuba bagi peluang kat hati untuk terima cinta tu, dat's why la, cinta tu xpernah dtg...klu dtg pun, mmg aku xsedar pun..
klu sedar...haha..that's call I'm crying..huhu..because Love is pain...then..slowly, it will ended with happiness..because Love is between me & you..who is you? will be anybody..you choose...

1Malaysia...

Mood:ok
My life would suck without you by Kelly Clarkson...
'Guess this means you're sorry..
you're standing at my door..
Guess this means you take back..
All you said before..'

Mata aku ni mmg jenis ala-ala peka je dgn alam sekeliling..selalu nek bas mmg aku pling suka duk tepi tingkap..sbb..suka main observe pe2 yg ada spanjang jln on de way ke ofis..hehe

dan..satu hari2, aku trpandang cam da yg xkena je kat words 'Wawasan 2020' yg elok je letak kat rooftop bangunan angkasapuri2..dan my heart court pun mulalah wat sesi bual bicara..
"Eii..diorang ni tak perasan ke..rasa cam nak jatuh je words tu.."

And...after dat day, mmg aku dah xbape endah dah pasal benda tu..sampailah, tetiba tu, on de way nak balik dari ofis,....
"Aik..bila masa pulak, ada words 1Malaysia kat situ..huhu..." Apa-apa jelah..
Tapi, since Tun Mahathir jadi PM, Wawasan 2020 tu dah sebati kat situ...sampailah, Dato' Seri Najib naik jadi PM skang..
1Malaysia vs Wawasan 2020...

1Malaysia...lebih shoot pada perpaduan.mybe..dats our PM vision..rakyat M'sia skang lack bab unity, maybe...this is what happen today..

wawasan 2020...the power of dreams..think beyond the future

& maybe...we have to consider cause & benefit relationship...(korek balik MA pnye subjek..)..1Malaysia is a cause& the benefit, Wawasan 2020 for the future, become reality...

pe2 pun, we can't even compare all the 5 PM..coz, the years is difference...zaman pun lain...mind rakyat M'sia pun lain..then, rambut sama hitam, hati lain2..w/pun, ideologi sama, xsemestinya, pemikiran sama..bila pemikiran xsama, visi & misi pun xsama..what ever it is...hope everything is ok..biarlah M'sia ni aman seaman2nya..secara zahir & batinnya..

#Tadi, my colleagous baru naikkan poster our PM kat dinding...huhu..poster2 bru je dapat semlm & poster Pak Lah pun dah diturunkan dengan hormatnya...

Audit Lagi..& lagi...

Mood: Stable..
Song: Love Story by Taylor Swift

Baru je ari tu ckp yg my 3rd company xcomplicated sgt..dan2 plak de prob. Nape lak time2 nak audit ni prob plak..dugaan!!!!!

emm..sumenya gara2 de somebody yg trsalah enter date..supposely thn 2009 payment date..tp, trenter 2008. then, my boss xperasan sbb auditor dh check evrything..so, ingat dah ok..trus closed account. Pulak tu, company tu financial period dia Feb-Mar. So, acc untuk Feb07-Mar08 dah closed. payment yg sepatutnya Feb 2009, terenter Feb 2008...huhu..padahnya...kitaorg kena key in balik sume transaction since Mar 09 till today..uwaaaa...bab sales, Lin & Vinc take over..purchase & monthly pyment ak kena takeover evrything. recon bank statemt..petty cash..credit card pymnt..commision..dat's also my job. sesambil tu...kena prepare details u tax computation plak, coz nk reduce tax payable u co. yg baru pas audit ri2..huhu..

ari tu baru je ingat nk cover balik keje yg aku kena delay sbb audit..skang de plak keje baru..rasenya dh settle audit untuk sume company kat ofis tu, baru aman sikit kut aku punya schedule..tapi, klu xde keje cam bosan la plak..

pe2 pun..kat ofis2 w/pun my position still lg acc asistant..my boss slalu sgt pnggil aku accountant..huhu..klu my collegous tnya term2 pasl account...
"ask our accountant...." hehe...

klu de incoming call..."account department plz...." line2 automtik akn pass kt aku..huhu..

#May Allah Bless me...

"I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around..
my faith in you was fading...."

AlhaMduliLLah.......

"Good job..." that's the first word yg kuar dr mulut my boss sebaik shj auditor kuar dr ofis ktorang..alhamdulillah.

"Shila..u can going back early la..tired already.." Ergh...alhamdulillah.aku mmg tunggu masa je..siap doa lg suh boss balik awai skit. aku dh xtahan nak kelepek atas meja.penat sesangat...dah berpuluh kali aku menguap.

Esok..a lot of works i need to cover back. sume bnda yg ak tangguhkn sbb audit..alhamdulillah, dah dua co' siap audit..kira ak declare cam2 la w/pun co' yang 1 tu lum btul2 siap spenuhnye lg..so, skang, tggu yg de last co', co' ni ak xrisau sgt cz transaction xcomplicated sgt..tp, bln ni mmg ak xbolh mnta cuti..huhu..nasib baik gak, ari sabtu ni cuti umum..leh gak ak menapak balik kg...lgpun...my anak sedara da kat kg skang cz ibunye ad course Jqaf kat Lipis..hehe..

#Alhamdullillah...Allah permudahkan segalanya. kadang2 tak guna pun kita risaukn sesuatu perkara yg mmg akan brlaku ataupun dah berlaku..sbb kita xbolh wat pe2 pun untuk halang perkara tu brlaku..

"It's gonna happen when it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time..."

Kun fayakun..dan, kt punya doa untuk jadi back up..dan ya..Allah sentiasa bersama kita.....

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"Shila..Ann call.."
"Shila..auditor.."
"Shila..Bank.."
"Shila..Ann again.."
"Shila...auditor again.."
"Shila...Bank again.."

Eiiii..rasa cam nak cabut je wayar phone tu..asalla time aku busy gile ni rmai plak yang interupt. kalau interupt sekadar nak tanya je ke..tak pe gak, ni interupt yang spesis bagi aku kerja ni memangla..dah tak cukup dengan tangan...dengan kaki aku sekali naik. Tiap kali phone masuk..dada aku dah bagi signal. Janganlah call tu untuk aku...

dan tiap kali, diorang sebut je nama aku...kaki aku dah mula buat signal hentak kaki. uwaaa...aku tak nak jawab phone dah..kalau takde staff lain kat situ..memang aku hujan dah..

"Shila...what u have finished..." Aku explain lebih kurang.
"Okay..good. Just continue..focus for the big one. the small-small, just leave it first. then, if finished everything, focus for fixed asset ok..."
"Okay..." Aku dah kelepek atas meja.

then...shila, phone..
"Shila...tommorow, you come little bit early ya..we finished everything before auditor come..."
"Okay..." Rasa cam nak ketuk-ketuk je kepala ni dengan gagang phone. Memangla aku ni...

"Ann..auditor call, ask about the trade debtor..."
"Okay..you just fax the details la.."

Then...Shila call, auditor...
"Ya..I fax already..."
"Okay..I check first..."
"Why the figure is difference..."
"No..its just one of the causes...others, also include the bad debts written off..."
"Okaylah..I check everything tomorrow..."

Eiii...banyak songeh plak auditor ni..aku dah bagi details tu kira ok la tu..ni plak dia suh buat schedule..banyak pula request dia. Awai2 dulu tak nak request, dah last2 minute, baru nak bagitau...urgent la. Memangla urgent, kalau benda tu nak esok, bagitau hari ni...Allah bagi aku 2 tangan je...

Esok..auditor nak datang untuk satu lagi company. Bulan lepas dah settle audit untuk company yang satu lagi...bulan depan plak untuk the last company....Tulah, kalau dah ada 3 company...time audit ni, sume benda jadi urgent. Betullah..accountant vs internal auditor vs external auditor...

#May Allah Bless me....Anything happen tommorow..just leave it up to Allah coz He knows everything...